I've warned a couple of friends that wanted to learn more about conspiracy fact, that it *will* harm them. You can lead a happy, virtuous, even holy, life and not know this stuff. Think twice before you move forward.
yeah i wish i had never looked into any of this 15 years ago. my life would be a lot better now. i’d still be working in the private sector, probably a junior exec making 350,000 a year, living in some beachfront condo, married to some trophy wife, with two kids, and a jaguar parked in the garage. instead i live in a motel and can’t even get my hand to jerk me off let alone a date. lol
I hear you. Waking up about the monsters is a kind of death. Somewhere between the Agony in the Garden and My God, my God, why have You forsaken me? But resurrection can follow the death and desolation.
You *must* have the tools for processing great horror, profound sorrow, righteous anger, and more to deal with this stuff straight out of Lovecraft. You *will* mourn. You *will* be traumatized. Guard your heart.
Fear: the devil's greatest trick; his other is shame. WW, you're fine on the second; we love the way you 'let it all hangout.' That's healthy; healing. For fear: Psalm 91 and Psalm 23, as well as Ephesians 6:10-20, nighttime, noontime, anytime, until you've memorized them, and they come to mind unbidden.
IF I lived closer, I would tell you of my "great escapes" or rather "rescues" by God's Hand when none other could have saved me. NO ONE can 'take us out' prior to God's purpose for us (here) being fulfilled. After that, why would we want to be here anyway?
A great Home and inheritance awaits all who call ourselves by His Name. Until then, God will keep you in the way that you go. Keep going for Him. "His perfect love casts-out all fear."
Thank you for sharing because EVERYONE (must) know a friend or family member with mental illness. I’ve had too many immediate family members whose lives didn’t end naturally. And a friend whom I’ve talked down more times to count over decades. And, because I’ve been blessedly spared, I still can’t put myself in your mental hats! It’s sooo hard for us to really grasp. But your sharing your truth and experiences sheds a bright light on what it’s truly like. So (maybe) when we see those on the street muttering about an apocalypse, we can have a moment of understanding and compassion.
Because there are no easy answers. I wish there were magical immediate cures - like when a deaf child gets a choclear implant and we witness the transformation and joy on their face!!! And I wish you could have less emotional pain. But you are hanging in and we are all grateful for your passion and conscience. 💚☘️💚☘️
i feel for u buddy.....this world is insane for the so called normies thatvare just waking up to the reality we are oivingm could imagine those that have gone deep down… not for the faint of heart. Not sure what the solution is, if tyere is one.
MDMA has sometimes cured schizophrenia - probably why our government made it illegal - also it made you feel good. The pure almond extract, not the bar drug.
Wolf: the ones you are fighting are not even the real demons you are fighting:
Ephesians 6:12
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
I’m right there with you. I was a charge nurse in a prison infirmary for a long time and researched the abyss for far too long according to my therapist. I had to retire and I’m no longer able to work. I’m a train wreck now. I thought I was stronger than I am and it’s difficult to deal with it. I refuse to take the poison the doctors prescribed though. You’re not alone. There are many of us.
the meds and ‘therapy’ made me ten times worse — which was the point of it all i now realize. they don’t make money curing you. they make money keeping you in their system.
The type of research you are doing can take you one of four places. 1.(most common) a dead end, a brick wall 2. Total paranoia 3. Settling on agnosticism with regard to the subject matter (a actually read a conspiracy book where the author ended on the words internet writer hat most, "I don't know." 4. Actually figuring out something to within scientific or criminal law parameters, which is what makes people get disappeared or otherwise neutralized. You do things that sane people who really want to stay alive generally do not do. I have been told, that in that world, referred to as the "mirror world" in the conversation, it's impossible to really know anything anyway.
Take care, I don't agree with your position on certain issues, but you definitely got a set of big ones on you (apologies for the sexist language). We are all on the "hit list" or "shit list" at this point but you need to ask yourself "Do I really want to get to the top that fast?" Take Care.
Peace be with you. I feel your pain and challenge and am grateful that you have chosen to do what you are doing in the face of it all.
I have a bandwith theory - that every human has the capacity for infinite (almost?) good and infinite evil. That said, most people live about 4” from the center (and we can debate if that’s really living). But however far you go in one direction you may go that far in the other direction as well. So often people with great talents, abilities, wisdom suffer greatly as well.
Be safe, take care, you are not alone…thank you for who you are and what you are doing…and to Lily too.
Brutally honest, this was a clear message... you have been healing yourself your whole life. It's true we do not agree on many things, and I am engaging/commenting often here because that is what we are supposed to do on Substack... right? at least that is what I tell myself, that we need not agree but should sit across the table freely and share in this humanity gig...
Thank GOD for your awesome and twisted sense of humor - it has helped you survive... I appreciate your blunt honesty and brutal narration -am amazed at the volume of work you pump out - with or without Lily... THE WRITING is your calling, clearly...
Something needs to shift for you... For me it happened in an elevator. Someone simply said to me "you complain too much, you need to stop" and my soul shifted. I will never forget that four seconds of reflection. So simple, something changed me and my life skipped a beat -my feet started walking onto a different path.
Our existences, yours and mine, rest on the opposite far sides of one park bench, this is so clear, so why am I here on your 'stack? IDK.
It's said we choose who our parents are for a specific reason - to experience life in a very specific way. If this is true, what did you need to learn here so you can get past it? Are you done learning this and can you move on? When is the experience/training over and what is next for you? Can you focus on that? Can you see it? Can you seek a miracle, one you witness, to write about?
so, ok, I am ready for your beat down... where you attack my words in rage... but here it is:
Ah well, I just feel like I have a mission to help people like myself. I really want to make a way for the outcasts of the world to get a leg up. To genuinely make it. I’ve known a lot of people who only needed a chance. That has been important to me for a while.
wow dang, im still reading but already loving
you cant dig into this stuff without it impacting your mental health. the world is ruled by biblical evil.
I've warned a couple of friends that wanted to learn more about conspiracy fact, that it *will* harm them. You can lead a happy, virtuous, even holy, life and not know this stuff. Think twice before you move forward.
yeah i wish i had never looked into any of this 15 years ago. my life would be a lot better now. i’d still be working in the private sector, probably a junior exec making 350,000 a year, living in some beachfront condo, married to some trophy wife, with two kids, and a jaguar parked in the garage. instead i live in a motel and can’t even get my hand to jerk me off let alone a date. lol
I hear you. Waking up about the monsters is a kind of death. Somewhere between the Agony in the Garden and My God, my God, why have You forsaken me? But resurrection can follow the death and desolation.
Evil doesn't get the last word, bro
You *must* have the tools for processing great horror, profound sorrow, righteous anger, and more to deal with this stuff straight out of Lovecraft. You *will* mourn. You *will* be traumatized. Guard your heart.
It's true. Hell is what you make of it. This is a realization for one soul at a time.
Fear: the devil's greatest trick; his other is shame. WW, you're fine on the second; we love the way you 'let it all hangout.' That's healthy; healing. For fear: Psalm 91 and Psalm 23, as well as Ephesians 6:10-20, nighttime, noontime, anytime, until you've memorized them, and they come to mind unbidden.
IF I lived closer, I would tell you of my "great escapes" or rather "rescues" by God's Hand when none other could have saved me. NO ONE can 'take us out' prior to God's purpose for us (here) being fulfilled. After that, why would we want to be here anyway?
A great Home and inheritance awaits all who call ourselves by His Name. Until then, God will keep you in the way that you go. Keep going for Him. "His perfect love casts-out all fear."
"Just because you're paranoid don't mean they're not after you..."
Kurt Cobain (Territorial Pissings) borrowed from Joseph Heller (Catch 22)
Love did that to him, to the world... IYKWIM
Thank you for sharing because EVERYONE (must) know a friend or family member with mental illness. I’ve had too many immediate family members whose lives didn’t end naturally. And a friend whom I’ve talked down more times to count over decades. And, because I’ve been blessedly spared, I still can’t put myself in your mental hats! It’s sooo hard for us to really grasp. But your sharing your truth and experiences sheds a bright light on what it’s truly like. So (maybe) when we see those on the street muttering about an apocalypse, we can have a moment of understanding and compassion.
Because there are no easy answers. I wish there were magical immediate cures - like when a deaf child gets a choclear implant and we witness the transformation and joy on their face!!! And I wish you could have less emotional pain. But you are hanging in and we are all grateful for your passion and conscience. 💚☘️💚☘️
i feel for u buddy.....this world is insane for the so called normies thatvare just waking up to the reality we are oivingm could imagine those that have gone deep down… not for the faint of heart. Not sure what the solution is, if tyere is one.
MDMA has sometimes cured schizophrenia - probably why our government made it illegal - also it made you feel good. The pure almond extract, not the bar drug.
Wolf: the ones you are fighting are not even the real demons you are fighting:
Ephesians 6:12
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
You're one in a million, WW. I hope you find some healing and harmony, as you fight the good fight.
"Bipolar depression."
* Mac doesn't understand how Wise Wolf can feel bad after traveling to the North Pole and Antarctica *
haha bro
I’m right there with you. I was a charge nurse in a prison infirmary for a long time and researched the abyss for far too long according to my therapist. I had to retire and I’m no longer able to work. I’m a train wreck now. I thought I was stronger than I am and it’s difficult to deal with it. I refuse to take the poison the doctors prescribed though. You’re not alone. There are many of us.
the meds and ‘therapy’ made me ten times worse — which was the point of it all i now realize. they don’t make money curing you. they make money keeping you in their system.
The type of research you are doing can take you one of four places. 1.(most common) a dead end, a brick wall 2. Total paranoia 3. Settling on agnosticism with regard to the subject matter (a actually read a conspiracy book where the author ended on the words internet writer hat most, "I don't know." 4. Actually figuring out something to within scientific or criminal law parameters, which is what makes people get disappeared or otherwise neutralized. You do things that sane people who really want to stay alive generally do not do. I have been told, that in that world, referred to as the "mirror world" in the conversation, it's impossible to really know anything anyway.
Take care, I don't agree with your position on certain issues, but you definitely got a set of big ones on you (apologies for the sexist language). We are all on the "hit list" or "shit list" at this point but you need to ask yourself "Do I really want to get to the top that fast?" Take Care.
Peace be with you. I feel your pain and challenge and am grateful that you have chosen to do what you are doing in the face of it all.
I have a bandwith theory - that every human has the capacity for infinite (almost?) good and infinite evil. That said, most people live about 4” from the center (and we can debate if that’s really living). But however far you go in one direction you may go that far in the other direction as well. So often people with great talents, abilities, wisdom suffer greatly as well.
Be safe, take care, you are not alone…thank you for who you are and what you are doing…and to Lily too.
Brutally honest, this was a clear message... you have been healing yourself your whole life. It's true we do not agree on many things, and I am engaging/commenting often here because that is what we are supposed to do on Substack... right? at least that is what I tell myself, that we need not agree but should sit across the table freely and share in this humanity gig...
Thank GOD for your awesome and twisted sense of humor - it has helped you survive... I appreciate your blunt honesty and brutal narration -am amazed at the volume of work you pump out - with or without Lily... THE WRITING is your calling, clearly...
Something needs to shift for you... For me it happened in an elevator. Someone simply said to me "you complain too much, you need to stop" and my soul shifted. I will never forget that four seconds of reflection. So simple, something changed me and my life skipped a beat -my feet started walking onto a different path.
Our existences, yours and mine, rest on the opposite far sides of one park bench, this is so clear, so why am I here on your 'stack? IDK.
It's said we choose who our parents are for a specific reason - to experience life in a very specific way. If this is true, what did you need to learn here so you can get past it? Are you done learning this and can you move on? When is the experience/training over and what is next for you? Can you focus on that? Can you see it? Can you seek a miracle, one you witness, to write about?
so, ok, I am ready for your beat down... where you attack my words in rage... but here it is:
(At this point: Only you can heal yourself)
"You complain too much, you need to stop"
You’re a real one and that’s 100% of why I support you. Wish I could do more.
you are honestly probably my oldest paid sub negi. youve done plenty.
Ah well, I just feel like I have a mission to help people like myself. I really want to make a way for the outcasts of the world to get a leg up. To genuinely make it. I’ve known a lot of people who only needed a chance. That has been important to me for a while.
"You should read the files on some of the f----ers. I mean, it reads like a demon's resume." -- Gross Pointe Blank
oh and 8 heads in a duffel bag!
ah i forgot all about that movie. i should rewatch it.
I can’t send you anything today. It a big, big hug. Hope today is better.❤️
Your friend wasn’t crazy. He had parasites in his brain that look like tiny spiders. I have also heard people say they look like tiny crabs.