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Karen Grimes's avatar

I understand. At 82, so far, I have freed myself from abuse of the type you describe. I finally feel safe, or more safe than ā€œ beforeā€, ( living with monsters).

So, I took the slogan from AA, ā€œ one day at a timeā€, and anotherā€¦ā€ the only constant is changeā€.

Nothing stays the same endlessly, though it feels like that.

Angel, if I had money or a place to put you up, I would.

In the meantime, I bless you with safe passage and a prayer. šŸ™

Doris Carey's avatar

Thank you for sharing a small part of your story brother. Your story is my story. Angel’s story is my story. Her life is saved. She escaped. Not every woman and man does. She’s telling her story, rather than hiding it in shame. As you know, healing is not linear. It’s a lifetime of learning self love, of reclaiming your own life and in times of self abandonment, returning to yourself. My prayers are with sweet Angel. I will support her and let her know she’s not alone. šŸ«¶šŸ½šŸ’œšŸ«¶šŸ½

Lexie Norway's avatar

Thank you for giving her the stepping stones to continue crawling out of hell. A story enough of unfortunately resonate with. I was the red headed step child in the Cinderella story Angel. You're not alone sweetheart. Thank you for you for being brave enough to share it. I hope you realize it helps others who don't even know others suffer in any similar way. I look forward to following you journey. If no one told you today I'm proud of you, you are strong, you are loved.

Angie Walker's avatar

So many girls don’t even make it to womanhood without being abused. It’s sad and pathetic. Then unfortunately the cycle continues. However, there will be days of pure happiness and there will be days of peace. I pray that your rainbow appears soon for you. If you have health insurance please consider therapy. I waited until I was in my late fifties to get that therapy. I am 64 now and still have a hard time trusting men. So Angel you have a long beautiful road ahead of you. I’m glad that you can write. Art has always been my anchor. Hold onto that anchor. I will read your books. I have always loved reading. When you get settled maybe think about getting a dog. They have unconditional love and can remind us of what that feels like when humans have shown us so much bad. There is real good in this world. Sometimes it’s just hard to see through the tears. I will be praying for your rainbow sweet angel.

Erik Olson's avatar

Angel, I am a 40 yr old father. Just for context. I related to ever word you said. Some of them gave shape to things I've carried for the first time. While I am sure the nature of the torment, seems obviously different between us...I know how to read words that aren't there...I do know the move of disappearing, shinking, and self erasure that comes after belts, bullying, and co dependant manipulation.

For years, I chose the "if I hate myself enough and abuse my self first, it won't hurt when they do it" path. I thought God abandoned me for years. Or I lived like it. Thanks to you I realize he didn't. He's the reason my masks don't work anymore. What a beautiful line.

The most frequent line Angels say in the Bible is "do not be afraid." They don't safe that because they look like a lady in flowing robes on a Hallmark card. They're terrifying. Not because they're evil. But because it's obvious who they work for. God bless.

Amy J Schlosser's avatar

Says a problem on the go fund me page-fyi

🐺The Wise Wolf's avatar

yeah another person said that too. weird. it worked for me. i messaged her to check it out.

Shawna Gamble's avatar

Unfortunately the GFM is not taking donations. It says it tried to contact the owner to resolve an issue. Are you able to reach her maybe...

🐺The Wise Wolf's avatar

really? that’s weird because it’s had a few go through. i hate gofundme. i tried it once and after raising 1400 bucks for a charity it banned the account and never refunded anyone even though it claims refunds are guaranteed. im sure shed appreciate you becoming a paid subscriber just as much.

KJK65's avatar

I had the same result when I went to donate. Hopefully Angel can login and resolve whatever issue they claim exists.

High Frequency Being's avatar

Not all Angels carry swords. Some help us see through the heaviest fog, some give our voice to our learned silence, some remind us we're not alone even when it feels like it.

Keep writing Angel. Your words are opening doors we can walk through without trippingā¤ļøšŸ§”šŸ’›

The Mick's avatar

God bless and Protect.

May you find sanctuary swiftly.

Michael.

Antonio Castellaneta's avatar

That chimney clogged with nests seems to have held far more than the birds. Some absences keep living inside things until one day the smoke returns them all at once.

ShelbyRae Lane's avatar

Oh Angel, your words reasonate so deeply. I was married at 17, 3 kids by 23, thought I was trapped forever, and would surely die young. By 30 the hands and deeds of strangers gave me options and different paths to follow. They will, and are doing the same for you.